Center of Attention- Jackson Waters

I realized something today.
Running away isn't going to help anything.
Going to Spain, is not going to change things for me. It's just going to make me more lost. I have a home here, a life here. True, I don't like some of the people around me. I don't like the way most of the people at my school act. They way they are. I don't like how everything is so fake in high school, the way parties are the highlight of a week. I don't like the way people turn on each other so easily, and the way girls allow themselves to be used.
But that's just life.
It's going to be there wherever I go. And here, I've already established things. I know who and what I need, and who and what I don't. Going somewhere else will just require me to find it all over again. I went through that process last year, finding myself in high school. It wasn't fun. It basically just one big struggle, flitting from thing to thing, person to person, trying to find where I was supposed to be.
And now I've found it. I have a boyfriend that I love. We haven't said it yet, the I Love You's. I promised C once, that I would never tell anyone else that I loved them. I always thought I would be betraying him by doing it. But now I see, that I'm betraying myself by not.
Because I think I do love him. In a different way that I loved C, and S. C was my one love, maybe my true love, my soul mate. S was my comfortable love, my brother love.
And G... G is my smiling love.
He makes me happy. I am happy. So why run away?